Wishes that arise off deep liking, off the deepest thoughts and the deepest mind. Overlooking the fact that liking might not necessarily be the one to hold your hand in despair but dismay, we still wish.
PS: I had to use couple ov lines (highlighted) from the song "Time ov your life" by Green Day, could not resist, billy writes his heart out.
Whats foreseeable is never right,
our surprisal time was such a delight.
Walking blindly on your path.
Just another phase ov life!
With happiness in plenty,
with arising need and love,
with time and fondness so much,
life never seemed so lively.
Just another corner ov life!
Moments we walked,
moments we kissed,
moments we hugged,
a new life every moment.
Just another form ov life!
Intense desires e'er living,
intense alikeness so growing,
intense warmth forever beaming,
life flies, in the air!
Just another smile ov life!
Never not agnise,
never not arise,
never-theless those "my" eyes,
life felt so secure.
So unpredictible, but was always right,
I hope you lived the time ov your live.
Yes, may be I was wrong,
may be I failed to sing a song,
yes, I could never be strong,
but never deserved a thorn.
How was I supposed to
Understand what you don't express
Read what you don't write
Hear what you don't speak
Feel what you don't gleam
As hence you expect,
a motherless son to feel her love.
As hence you presume,
to witness a burning water.
As hence you adjudge,
a free fish in aquarium.
As hence you foresee,
your deformation beyond the dark!
I wish sky wasn't blue!
I wish water wasn't wet!
I wish wind had direction!
I wish air wasn't bliss!
I wish so I din't love you!
Another face ov life!
Monday, March 16, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Let me
In the times when you are so desperate to let your feelings out to explain, to such an extent that the stars don't shine anymore, that the sun refuses to let its light on you, and so forth. And hence a plead a chance to express.
Give me a chance
to let me express,
I've been denying
my heart every bless.
Give me a chance
and let me explain,
believe my lady
truthz unbeknown.
Why don't we talk?
Why don't we throw?
out the emotions
and deflect the woe.
I've been trying
I've been wondering,
why on earth
is my happiness plundering?
You gota believe me
You gota hear me,
for all the love we shared
we want it to be.
I've been denying,
my heart every bless,
I still wana wait
I know I can express.
A dawn shall rise
my dusk will set,
and when prejudice cries
your tears will sweat.
Give me a chance
to let me express,
I've been denying
my heart every bless.
Give me a chance
and let me explain,
believe my lady
truthz unbeknown.
Why don't we talk?
Why don't we throw?
out the emotions
and deflect the woe.
I've been trying
I've been wondering,
why on earth
is my happiness plundering?
You gota believe me
You gota hear me,
for all the love we shared
we want it to be.
I've been denying,
my heart every bless,
I still wana wait
I know I can express.
A dawn shall rise
my dusk will set,
and when prejudice cries
your tears will sweat.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
What Have I Done?
This one goes in a situation where the creature questions the creator about how and why he loses, so much so that he is lost and left with nothing but the love of some. The loss irreversible, the mind so confused and thoughts so off, that he complaint and begs for no more.
Why am I losing?
Why am I needing?
Why am I not holding?
Why am I not myself?
What have I done?
ripped off my happiness,
when I owned nothing
you denied everything,
Now I don't have anything
but still??
Am I the pawn in the game ov chess?
Why am I losing it all??
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
If there was a first ray of dawn,
it was her,
If there was a fresh breeze in despair,
it was her,
if there was a hope in this devoid life,
it was her,
If there was a light in the dark,
it was her,
if there was sense, in this worldly nonsense,
it was her,
if there was love, in the world full of hatred,
it was her,
if there was a meaning to my life, in all the mean times,
it was her,
If there was a hug to my needing arms,
it was her,
If there was a shoulder to my hues,
it was her,
If there was a smile ov my lips,
it was her,
If there was an eye to my tears,
it was her,
If there was a strength to my loss,
it was her,
if there was a life to death,
it was her.
When I lost her, I dint complain
When I was accused, I dint complain
When I was destroyed, I dint complain
When I was humiliated, I dint complain
When I was made to cry, I dint complain
When they were made to laugh, I dint complain
when they were made to blv I am weak, I dint complain
When they plotted and planned, I dint complain
When they played dirty, I dint complain
Even when they wrecked havoc, I dint complain
When she was mine, when everything was fine,
when we followed a perfect line,
when we walked, leaving a shine
then we smiled like a rainbow refine.
Weren't you always divine?
Will not you always be divine?
Is this the anger thine???
She was, thence denied!
No complaints, my forte pride.
Loyalty you expect, how much be my question,
I always strive, and so did my confession,
and still why, so much ov suppression?
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
You snatched my soul,
You snatched my being,
You saddened me to extremes,
You ripped my heart,
You embarassed me,
You snatched even her,
no complaints, my forte pride!
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
How and why would you expect me to be quiet??
Neither have I asked you to prove your worth,
Nor have I asked you to vent your anger,
Neither I ever dared to question your might
Nor have I dreamed of life without acknowledging your oneness,
Neither I've ever not remembered you,
Nor I've planned not to,
Neither I've asked none to part their ways from your way,
Nor I've done it myself,
Neither I've not bowed down to you in worship,
Nor I've failed to ask you for help
Neither I've asked none but you,
Nor I will ask none but you
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
And even then,
When I was learning to love, you crippled my heart
When I was dreaming the lovely nights, you blackened my vision
When I was gazing at the twinkles, you obscured the stars
When I was learning to talk, you quietened me
When I was learning to hear, you quiescent the sings
When I was learning to witness, you vanished the signs
When I was loving the bloom, you brooded the thorns
When I was needing her love, you left me bleeding
and
When I was waiting, you kept me waiting and waiting
and waiting
and waiting
And for all that I deserved,
you just let me breathe 17,
as if my life was supposed to be,
the one unseen.
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
I still need her to be with me,
need her to be with me,
need her to smile at me
need her to swear at me,
need her to cry with me,
need her to laugh at me,
need her to talk to me,
need her to walk with me,
need her to lie to me,
need her to smile at me,
smile at me,
smile at me,
smile at me,
and
smile at me...
Where my God?
where??
Why??
When??
When??
Why??
Why??
Please, please please, P L E A S E!
Why am I losing?
Why am I needing?
Why am I not holding?
Why am I not myself?
What have I done?
ripped off my happiness,
when I owned nothing
you denied everything,
Now I don't have anything
but still??
Am I the pawn in the game ov chess?
Why am I losing it all??
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
If there was a first ray of dawn,
it was her,
If there was a fresh breeze in despair,
it was her,
if there was a hope in this devoid life,
it was her,
If there was a light in the dark,
it was her,
if there was sense, in this worldly nonsense,
it was her,
if there was love, in the world full of hatred,
it was her,
if there was a meaning to my life, in all the mean times,
it was her,
If there was a hug to my needing arms,
it was her,
If there was a shoulder to my hues,
it was her,
If there was a smile ov my lips,
it was her,
If there was an eye to my tears,
it was her,
If there was a strength to my loss,
it was her,
if there was a life to death,
it was her.
When I lost her, I dint complain
When I was accused, I dint complain
When I was destroyed, I dint complain
When I was humiliated, I dint complain
When I was made to cry, I dint complain
When they were made to laugh, I dint complain
when they were made to blv I am weak, I dint complain
When they plotted and planned, I dint complain
When they played dirty, I dint complain
Even when they wrecked havoc, I dint complain
When she was mine, when everything was fine,
when we followed a perfect line,
when we walked, leaving a shine
then we smiled like a rainbow refine.
Weren't you always divine?
Will not you always be divine?
Is this the anger thine???
She was, thence denied!
No complaints, my forte pride.
Loyalty you expect, how much be my question,
I always strive, and so did my confession,
and still why, so much ov suppression?
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
You snatched my soul,
You snatched my being,
You saddened me to extremes,
You ripped my heart,
You embarassed me,
You snatched even her,
no complaints, my forte pride!
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
How and why would you expect me to be quiet??
Neither have I asked you to prove your worth,
Nor have I asked you to vent your anger,
Neither I ever dared to question your might
Nor have I dreamed of life without acknowledging your oneness,
Neither I've ever not remembered you,
Nor I've planned not to,
Neither I've asked none to part their ways from your way,
Nor I've done it myself,
Neither I've not bowed down to you in worship,
Nor I've failed to ask you for help
Neither I've asked none but you,
Nor I will ask none but you
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
And even then,
When I was learning to love, you crippled my heart
When I was dreaming the lovely nights, you blackened my vision
When I was gazing at the twinkles, you obscured the stars
When I was learning to talk, you quietened me
When I was learning to hear, you quiescent the sings
When I was learning to witness, you vanished the signs
When I was loving the bloom, you brooded the thorns
When I was needing her love, you left me bleeding
and
When I was waiting, you kept me waiting and waiting
and waiting
and waiting
And for all that I deserved,
you just let me breathe 17,
as if my life was supposed to be,
the one unseen.
And still I lose, and I still I lose,
How much more be by question,
why so much suppression???
I still need her to be with me,
need her to be with me,
need her to smile at me
need her to swear at me,
need her to cry with me,
need her to laugh at me,
need her to talk to me,
need her to walk with me,
need her to lie to me,
need her to smile at me,
smile at me,
smile at me,
smile at me,
and
smile at me...
Where my God?
where??
Why??
When??
When??
Why??
Why??
Please, please please, P L E A S E!
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